I know I am not perfect but sometimes I am reminded how human I am. It's pretty humbling.
Junior is in t-ball and Daisy is in soft-ball as I have mentioned. Juniors team is practicing almost every day of the week (for 1 to 1 1/2 hours), while Daisy's team has praticed twice a week (although some weeks has only had one practice.) Now I do not expect Junior's team to play at professional level, or even high school level. I would like it if he pays attention and tries his best and has fun, OTOH I know at this age, expecting them to pay attention is somewhat pointless. They just have too much wiggle at this age (5 & 6 years old).
Anyway, my attitude has not been the best. I haven't thrown any hissy fits, or yelled at the coaches but I certainly haven't been living out the "joy of the Lord." I have been put here for something and I am pretty sure my purpose is not to show people how Christians can be cranky and irritable. When I focus on Him, my whole attitude is better, but I haven't been doing that for this ball thing.
When I talked to my spouse, he said "Well, we all fall down. The question is, what are you going to do about it now?" First thing I need to do is pray some more about my attitude about the whole thing, and then more specifically Junior's team practices. As well as, what is my purpose for being at all these games. Yes I am there to support my kid, but does God have some other thing he wants me to be doing or saying while we are there?